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Wednesday, August 5, 2009


FEBRUARY 23,

FEMALE DEAR,

BELATED HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

IF YOU STILL REMEMBER , THIS WAS THE SEASON THAT BOTH OF US LEAD TO KEEP OURSELVES BEING NEAR UNTIL YOU HAVE ENTRUSTED TO ME YOUR SWEET "YES".

IT'S OUR ANNIVERSARY TODAY, FEBRUARY 23, THE UNFORGETTABLE DATE WHICH I COULD NOT EASILY FORGET. THE DATE WHEREIN AT THE BEGINNING THERE WAS NO RESERVE THINKING THAT IT COULD BE IN VAIN. PERHAPS, FOR YOU IT HAS NO VALUE BUT FOR ME IT HAS A GREATEST IMPACT ON MY BEING .

FOR THE FEW DAYS OR EVEN WEEKS OF OUR RELATIONSHIP, IT HAS TAUGHT ME AND EVEN FOUND MYSELF HOW SWEET AND VALUABLE ALL THE LITTLE ACTS AND KINDNESS YOU HAVE SHOWN ON ME AND THOSE LITTLE THINGS REALLY DEVELOP INTO ITS DEEPEST SENSE. TO RECALL, THE CARE THAT YOU HAVE SHOWN WHEN WE WOKE UP EARLY, PREPARING A CUP OF MILK AND BREAD AND SOMETIMES FRUIT. ALL THOSE GENTLENESS ARE BEING TREASURED INTO MY MEMORY.

IT DOESN'T HURT ME WHEN ALMOST ALL THE TIME YOU DENY OUR RELATIONSHIP AND EVEN IN THE LAST FEW DAYS YOU FIRMLY DENY THAT NOTHING HAS BIND US BECAUSE THAT WAS OUR AGREEMENT BEFORE . IT IS NOT EASY TO BEAR WHEN SOMEONE NEGLECTED YOU OR EVEN OUTCASTED IN A FEELING THAT EVEN HIMSELF ONLY KNEW.

FROM ALL THOSE TRIALS ON ME, I EVEN THANKED THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP ONLY LASTED FOR FEW MONTHS BECAUSE FROM THESE MONTHS, THE PAIN THAT I FELT IS UNBEARABLE AND COULD BE FORGOTTEN BY THE IMPULSE OF THE MOMENT. WHAT IF OUR RELATIONSHIP LASTED FOR YEARS AND AT THE END YOU WILL NOT BE MINE? PERHAPS, THE ONLY THING THAT COULD TREAT OR SOLVE THIS IS A TRAGEDY.

I CAN'T FORGET YOU. FORGETTING YOU IS LIKE KILLING ME WITH A THOUSAND DAGGERS. YES, YOU KNEW ALREADY THAT I HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND BUT THIS WOMAN IS ONLY AN INSTRUMENT TO PACIFY FROM THE UNBEARBALE PAINS FROM THE FRUSTRATIONS I HAVE EXPERINECED IN YOU.

SOMETIMES, I AM UNAWARE THAT TEARS ARE FALLING DOWN ON MY CHEEKS AND THAT WAS THE TIME THAT LEADS ME TO THINK WHETHER I AM INSANE OR NOT. GOOD THAT AT THAT TIME THERE WAS M AND C WHO LISTENED TO ME, CONFIDING TO THEM ALL THE BURDENS I HAVE FELT. THEY CONSOLED ME AND IN THEIR YOUNGER AGES, YOU COULD HARDLY BELIEVE THAT THEY CAN GIVE SUGGESTIONS WHICH CAN EASE OUT PROBLEMS LIKE THIS.

IF ONLY I COULD MOVE MOUNTAINS, I'LL DO IT FOR YOU BUT AS SIMPLE AS I AM, I'M HELPLESS AND ONLY RESORTED TO FANTASY.

I UNDERSTAND YOUR PART. YOU DID IT FOR YOUR FAMILY AND THAT IS THE FIRST FACTOR WHY I CONSENTED AND AGREED WITH YOUR PROPOSAL. I ALREADY ACCEPTED THE REALITY THAT WE ARE NOT MEANT FOR EACH OTHER AND ONLY TIME WILL TELL WHETHER OR NOT WE'LL FIND OUR WAYS.

I KNOW YOU ARE VERY HAPPY NOWADAYS WITH YOUR LOVING HUSBAND AND I JUST HOPE THAT GOD WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU AND HIM. WISHING THAT BOTH OF YOU WILL HAVE A FRUITFUL DAYS AHEAD.

I'M SORRY IF I DISTURB YOU BUT IT IS ONLY IN THIS WAY WHERE I COULD ESSAY ALL THE SENTIMENTS I HAD. JUST INCLUDE ME ALSO IN YOUR PRAYERS THAT I STILL CAN SUFFER ALL THE REMAINING TRIALS THAT COME MY WAY BECAUSE IT SEEMS NOWADAYS THAT I WANT TO STOP EVERYTHING, BREATHING OR LIVING.

I'M HOPELESS AND IT SEEMS FOR ME THAT I HAVE NO PLACE TO ENJOY, RELAX, OR EVEN FIND MYSELF BRAVE TO FACE THE INEVITABLE CIRCUMSTANCES.

ALWAYS AND FOREVER,

MALE


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